Wam bam, thank you

What can I do to make you love me?

What can I do to make you care?

What can I say to make you feel this?

What can I do to get you there?

-The Corrs, What Can I do?

Since I do not know how to effin extrapolate the ideas in my head, here go the bullets! Yes, bullets.

* Birthday celebration = one of the best ever

* Intellectual conversations = love them

* Feelingera girls who wear short shorts and sitting like sluts and stuff and all that shit = hate them

* Alcohol = sometimes it's really the answer

* Old friends = smiley face!

* Beer = miss you, beer!

* Coffee = books

* Being alone = could get used to this

* Pink = on repeat 

* Sem break = infinite boredom

I need a drag!

Hakuna Matata

It's good to be single when you're surrounded with good people. I haven't really felt better about having a non-existent love life with a special someone before... but things do really change and for once in my adult life, I felt really good about it. I met with my high school friends and it was something that I will always be thankful for. Even though I've been away for the past eight years, they welcomed me with open arms when I came home. :) I'm so really grateful. (They were my classmates in First Year HS.)

So naniniwala talaga ako, when God closes a door, He really opens a window. This time, the window is so big I didn't miss it! So, thank you friends! Thank you for all the laughs, for the unbiased advises, unbiased opinions, the brutally frank and honest conversations over beer or coffee and for being there when I need to be with people who can completely, utterly accept me despite my flaws and our differences. I love you! Here's to forever friendship! :)

I love you P!nk :)

At some point in our lives, we feel like everything is not going right. When times like those come, I always find myself listening to a particular song that would actually help me lift up my moods. From Lady Antebellum, to Taylor Swift, to Miley Cyrus (yes, you read it right); Motion City Soundtrack, Muse, Typecast, Amy Winehouse and even Lily Allen -- for the second time, P!nk saved me. Here goes my song for the moment.:)

Boredom discoveries

A few days left and I'm turning into a twenty-something girl (woman?) who refuses to adhere to the society's immature belief that girls like my age should go, get a life, and settle down. 

Settling down? What settling down? Right now, I'm in my first year of college, a long overdue one. I'm quite enjoying the freedom of being a college student, the perks and the stress that comes with it. I'm learning new things... quite a bit, literally.. But the most important thing of all? I'm rediscovering myself.

I am, painstakingly, enduring some twinges of regret here and there because I haven't done any of this enjoyable things before. I was maddeningly glued to a single thought that turned out to be so fuckingly retarded: getting there. If you know me, you know what I'm talking about. Here comes the but.

It's annoying, really... to be at this age without having the means to live my life to the fullest. It's annoying because I could've done this before, but then again, it's better late than never. Rediscovering myself? That's the juicy part. I discovered that I'm really into guys who have chinky eyes, and I'm damn consistent. I discovered that I could have a crush on someone without having to resort to pathetic little text messages that would give him the red flag. Lastly, I discovered that being friendzoned is the worst feeling ever. Hahaha!

Seriously, why am I even bothering to write all these? Well, birthday girl (that's me, having the birthday jitters and the fear of growing old, lol), you are so bored with the semestral break that you want to go kick ass outside.

On second thought... never mind.

Looking at things in a different way

If truth be told, I've never thought that I'd be, at least once in my life, a Lasallian. Lasallians had not-so-nice reputation in the province when I was in High School. When people started to use the word 'conyo', the first thing to cross my mind is the elite circle of Green Archers and Blue Eagles... and all the other people who were born with a golden spoon in their mouths. Being a typical 'probinsyana', life is pretty simple for me. I only go to Manila when needed. I think I kind of get culture-shocked when I'm in there. It's still pretty much the same for me, still.

When I was thinking of going to college, the first choice was UP, of course, and then ADMU (syempre konting pangarap lang, hindi ko naman afford yan. haha.). De La Salle University, or any other De La Salle campus hasn't crossed my mind. Who would've thought that I'd be going there, much more in De La Salle Lipa? I thought, "if I go to La Salle, it should be in the main campus." I stereotype people in DLSL.

Even now, I still stereotype them, hahaha. Some people will kill me when they read this. I'm not too proud being a Lasallian in Lipa, but I'm not ashamed of it. But then, the tides really turn... Sometimes I find it enjoyable riding the bus going to and from the campus. Sometimes, I think that the universe conspired to "make me go there". Lately, I've been learning to appreciate the flaws of the campus. I'm learning to appreciate that the professors, even though they disappoint me sometimes, have the Batangenyo attitude that I would've missed when I went straight to DLSU... Yes, maybe I said that the education is really mediocre compared to that of the major universities in Manila, but I guess it's just really it in the province.

Somehow, I am thankful that I am going to DLSL. I've met so many people. I have fun with my younger classmates in the school cafeteria, aka Chez. I learn to appreciate the value of water and clean toilets and hand bidets when we were deployed to a rural elementary school. I laugh at my teachers' Batangenyo jokes. I can speak with my Batangenya accent and no one will laugh; I can make references to private Batangenyo jokes and people will understand. I think that I'm actually enjoying.

But, again, I also think that DLSL is only a stepping stone for me. When one dreams, one dreams high. One aims higher... and I think that Lipa is not a place for me to grow. I think that one day, I'll leave La Salle Lipa and go into a much larger environment, hence, with different kinds of people. I think I want to go some place else, where I can answer questions without standing up; where I can wear my tattered jeans; wear my corporate attire in a smart casual way; where I do not have to wear hellish high-heeled shoes while going up and down the stairs and where I can make a smart reference about something far-fetched and then they will get me.

One thing is for sure though: I will never look at Lipa Lasallians the way I looked at them (oh, at us) before. My mind is now open. :)

Animo La Salle! CHOS. hahaha!